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RAIN p.94 - The Wonder Drug by JocelynSamara RAIN p.94 - The Wonder Drug by JocelynSamara
(You probably know by now I can't help but post early at this time...)

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My best friend asked me this question over six years ago when I told him I wanted to transition. It took me off guard (probably as much as my revelation did to him), but as indecisive as I can be, I had my answer (more or less, Rain’s answer) very quickly.

I knew I wanted to use that question in this comic; it was and still is one of the most intelligent things I think I’ve ever been asked.

You might recall that just a few pages ago, I said, “if most transgendered people could just stop being transgendered, they would.” I maintain this stance. However, to “stop being transgendered” to the average transperson, would very likely mean that MtFs would just be women, and FtMs would just be men. To go on being the sex they were genetically forced into won’t do us any good.

For instance, I read this fascinating article a few years back (I wish I could remember the link). It was about a study, where they tried to hypnotize transpeople to make them not trans; in other words, to make them accept what they’re given. I don’t put much stock into hypnotism as is, but the perhaps seemed somewhat efficient on paper. The idea was to create a faster, safer, cheaper alternative to getting a sex change. Those who were successfully hypnotized, showed that an alarming majority of them either started to show signs of being transgendered again in a short time, or they fell into a terrible depression that they couldn’t describe; as though they were still deeply troubled by something, but couldn’t place why.

Okay, I promised myself I’d try not to get too preachy with this comic, so I hope these past few commentaries haven’t been too much. ^^;

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treager-sama Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
It's just WHAT we are. If you were male through and through, and someone waved a magic want and transformed you into a woman... wouldn't you do EVERYTHING in your power to return to who you truly are, inside? Some trans people, myself included, spent a significant portion of their lives (35 years) absolutely clueless to what they really were. Imagine going through that much of your life, not knowing who you truly are. You can deny it, you can stifle it, you can even try to ignore it... but you can't ever escape it. You are who you are, and for better or worse, you must inevitably face who you are.
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Nedemai Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student General Artist
I was asked this same question recently, and my response was pretty much the exact same.  It was a coincidence that I had read this not to long afterward (I've spent all day reading this comic).

My response to this question was that a pill like this would change who I fundamentally am, and that would be like death to me. I don't see anything wrong with who I am.
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AbiDrew Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013
"or they fell into a terrible depression that they couldn’t describe; as though they were still deeply troubled by something, but couldn’t place why"

This!  This describes my entire life from the time I was MAYBE 8 at the oldest until just a coupla years ago.  I can't verify it to have started any younger than 8 because I honestly have no real memory even now of my most formative years.  I just know that my earliest memories (where I also remember what age I was) are around 8 and even then, I was deeply troubled by something but couldn't place why.  It'd get worse and ease off in an almost cyclic pattern, but it was still ever persistent.  I actually even managed to convince myself I WASN'T being depressive during the eased off periods...  But...  Looking back now after finally freeing myself...  All I really knew then was anger and depression, just at varied levels.  I even know true despair.  And trust me, it ain't pretty.

Thing is, I did it entirely by myself, to myself, and broke free from it entirely by myself, from myself.  Sounds kinda confusing, I know, but it's exactly the way it went.  Self-hypnotism IS real.  All hypnotism does is program the conscious mind to perform certain responses to certain stimuli while preventing the subconscious mind from interfering.  That subconscious block is the source of the "deeply troubled" feeling and also why you can't place why.  WHY is in the subconscious, and is being blocked.

Some people take to hypnotism better than others, and for those, it'll last until it's broken.  For some it'll naturally deteriorate on it's own without consistent reiteration.  The ones where it naturally deteriorates are the ones that start showing signs of tg again in that article.

And when a part of the subconscious actually takes an active part in the constructing and maintaining of the program residing in the conscious and in blocking another part of the subconscious...  Which is what happened in my case...

Someone recently tried telling me I had no idea how powerful my mind is (someone who self-identifies as being "in-between" and insists there's no such thing as full transsexuals, only men, women, and "in-betweens"...  But I know EXACTLY how powerful my mind is.  I also know without a single doubt in my mind, heart, or soul, that I am a woman.  Heart, mind, and soul.  My stupid body can say whatever my stupid body wants to say, and my conscious mind can be tricked into saying things that aren't quite true as well, but the fact is, deep inside me, at the very core of my being, resides a woman.  End of story.

A few years ago I dropped out of college when I came face to face with true despair and still, even then, had no idea why.  A couple years ago I went on a deep soul search within myself with the aid of a very mild opiate herb.  I had no idea then that I was in fact a woman...  But at the end of the search when I finally found myself, my true self...  Wow.  What a revelation it was.  And it changed everything.

I'm now transitioning...  Very early in the process, but when I came to from that long nightmare there was no doubt in my mind that I had no other choice.

I'm a big fan of that question myself.  I actually turn it around on people who seem to think I should do just that.  I already took that magic pill when I was very VERY young.  And it nearly killed me.  So no.  I wouldn't.  At least, never again.  That's one of those things you only ever do once and then you know better.  Though in most conversations with people when they ask it, I say that I'm not sure I would.  Would you?  Implying they take a pill that'd turn them into a complete opposite of what they identify as and effectively kill their identity.  Or even, in cases when dealing with those bigoted genderqueers who seem to believe only cis-male , cis-female, and genderqueer exist, just whatever "sex" they were born with.  Because that's what that question boils down to.  Would you effectively kill yourself in order to make a completely different person just to appease others?
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Togekab00m Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013
I love this page.
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Ninjoon Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
Well this is kinda what i'm feeling. Good thing i'm doing something about it and trying to make this maybe possible via the study of biotechnology just you wait ill figure it out !
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JocelynSamara Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Professional Writer
"i'm doing something about it and trying to make this maybe possible"

Actually, I'm a little confused. When you say you want to make "this" possible, are you referring to Gavin's wonder drug or something else?
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Ninjoon Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2013
I am biotechnology student and I am theorizing about how to do it and I believe it would be possible with a combination of gene therapy, embryonic stem cells, and hormones. I don't believe in wonder cures like a pill since it wouldn't be specific enough for everyone. This is the genes and the expression of genes we see it is specific to each individual. If this is to be made possible we would need to expand our knowledge of stem cells and human DNA transformation. We are currently only looking at bacteria and other animals cells in the research since there are a lot of ethical barriers. Gene transformation i currently an imperfect technique since only some of the bacteria absorb the new DNA with the traditional method so we will have to look for new methods. That is why a specially designed Virus could be useful to transfer the added DNA.

When I am talking about DNA I mean the last strand of the X-sex chromosome derived from your mother since she would be the closest female relative.
 Embryonic stem cells are the cells which have yet to be told which kind of cell it is going to be call it the blank cell, so it could be anything and what it is going to be is chosen by the genes and hormones.
I believe with some perfection and advancement in this field of science transgendered people could get a normal life of the opposite gender without any differences to be seen. However it will also bring about a new age of trans humanism where humans would modify their body to have all sorts of extra attributes. An age of augmentation. It is not far fetched but it is far from fully hatched.

Remember this is just a theory and I might be hoping a little too much to think clearly but I will certainly look into it.
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SoniaRitsu Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2012
This is honestly pretty inspiring. I'm hoping to transition from female to male at some point in my life. That you for drawing this.
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Ryu890 Featured By Owner Aug 29, 2012
*sighs* A difficult question...but...wow.
As much as the idea hurts me to even consider....I feel obligated to acctually consider it.

If it was just me that was affected, then heck yes I'd throw this miracle pill away and still go through transition. But thats just it though...

Its really hurting my family. Even if it IS just their own close-mindedness, wouldn't that be the selfless thing to do? Take said pill and make everyone happy?



But still....no...it feels almost like an abomination...such a pill that can change someone's entire being so thoroughly...it reminds me of The Giver....when they started giving children pills that kept those nasty 'dreams' away.
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Epzi10n Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2012  Student Digital Artist
This. So much this page of the comic. This is what people don't understand most of the time, and this is how I feel about myself. No matter how much pain I am in, I cannot just give up or give in to something to make things "easier". I wouldn't be me.
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