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RAIN p.94 - The Wonder Drug by JocelynSamara RAIN p.94 - The Wonder Drug by JocelynSamara
(You probably know by now I can't help but post early at this time...)

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My best friend asked me this question over six years ago when I told him I wanted to transition. It took me off guard (probably as much as my revelation did to him), but as indecisive as I can be, I had my answer (more or less, Rain’s answer) very quickly.

I knew I wanted to use that question in this comic; it was and still is one of the most intelligent things I think I’ve ever been asked.

You might recall that just a few pages ago, I said, “if most transgendered people could just stop being transgendered, they would.” I maintain this stance. However, to “stop being transgendered” to the average transperson, would very likely mean that MtFs would just be women, and FtMs would just be men. To go on being the sex they were genetically forced into won’t do us any good.

For instance, I read this fascinating article a few years back (I wish I could remember the link). It was about a study, where they tried to hypnotize transpeople to make them not trans; in other words, to make them accept what they’re given. I don’t put much stock into hypnotism as is, but the perhaps seemed somewhat efficient on paper. The idea was to create a faster, safer, cheaper alternative to getting a sex change. Those who were successfully hypnotized, showed that an alarming majority of them either started to show signs of being transgendered again in a short time, or they fell into a terrible depression that they couldn’t describe; as though they were still deeply troubled by something, but couldn’t place why.

Okay, I promised myself I’d try not to get too preachy with this comic, so I hope these past few commentaries haven’t been too much. ^^;

Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.
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Stevekobbs Featured By Owner Edited Dec 9, 2014
omg that last panel is it, that's it. that's the truth. that's how I feel.
Ebonsong Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2014
Reading this, I wonder what people think about those not wanting to go either way in the binary gender. ie, the Other or Neutral. For me (who identifies as "other"), there's nothing to 'fix' towards one side or the other. Though in a ways, I'd like a physical way to opt out of the sex I was assigned at birth.
Lolice-Scarlet Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hypnosis can work, but it's not as simple as that.  It's hard to explain, but you technically have to let it work for it to have even the slightest effect.  Hypnosis is, as far as I'm aware, more or less words of encouragement most of the time.  So it makes sense that it wouldn't work, because there's nothing encouraging about being forced to live a lie.  Even if others don't view it as a lie.  Of course, I'm not the best person to explain anything, really.  So don't take my word for anything I just said.
treager-sama Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Hobbyist Interface Designer
It's just WHAT we are. If you were male through and through, and someone waved a magic want and transformed you into a woman... wouldn't you do EVERYTHING in your power to return to who you truly are, inside? Some trans people, myself included, spent a significant portion of their lives (35 years) absolutely clueless to what they really were. Imagine going through that much of your life, not knowing who you truly are. You can deny it, you can stifle it, you can even try to ignore it... but you can't ever escape it. You are who you are, and for better or worse, you must inevitably face who you are.
Nedemai Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2014  Student General Artist
I was asked this same question recently, and my response was pretty much the exact same.  It was a coincidence that I had read this not to long afterward (I've spent all day reading this comic).

My response to this question was that a pill like this would change who I fundamentally am, and that would be like death to me. I don't see anything wrong with who I am.
Stevekobbs Featured By Owner Dec 9, 2014
Exactly, *I* would be dead. The pill wouldn't "fix" me it would kill me.
AbiDrew Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2013
"or they fell into a terrible depression that they couldn’t describe; as though they were still deeply troubled by something, but couldn’t place why"

This!  This describes my entire life from the time I was MAYBE 8 at the oldest until just a coupla years ago.  I can't verify it to have started any younger than 8 because I honestly have no real memory even now of my most formative years.  I just know that my earliest memories (where I also remember what age I was) are around 8 and even then, I was deeply troubled by something but couldn't place why.  It'd get worse and ease off in an almost cyclic pattern, but it was still ever persistent.  I actually even managed to convince myself I WASN'T being depressive during the eased off periods...  But...  Looking back now after finally freeing myself...  All I really knew then was anger and depression, just at varied levels.  I even know true despair.  And trust me, it ain't pretty.

Thing is, I did it entirely by myself, to myself, and broke free from it entirely by myself, from myself.  Sounds kinda confusing, I know, but it's exactly the way it went.  Self-hypnotism IS real.  All hypnotism does is program the conscious mind to perform certain responses to certain stimuli while preventing the subconscious mind from interfering.  That subconscious block is the source of the "deeply troubled" feeling and also why you can't place why.  WHY is in the subconscious, and is being blocked.

Some people take to hypnotism better than others, and for those, it'll last until it's broken.  For some it'll naturally deteriorate on it's own without consistent reiteration.  The ones where it naturally deteriorates are the ones that start showing signs of tg again in that article.

And when a part of the subconscious actually takes an active part in the constructing and maintaining of the program residing in the conscious and in blocking another part of the subconscious...  Which is what happened in my case...

Someone recently tried telling me I had no idea how powerful my mind is (someone who self-identifies as being "in-between" and insists there's no such thing as full transsexuals, only men, women, and "in-betweens"...  But I know EXACTLY how powerful my mind is.  I also know without a single doubt in my mind, heart, or soul, that I am a woman.  Heart, mind, and soul.  My stupid body can say whatever my stupid body wants to say, and my conscious mind can be tricked into saying things that aren't quite true as well, but the fact is, deep inside me, at the very core of my being, resides a woman.  End of story.

A few years ago I dropped out of college when I came face to face with true despair and still, even then, had no idea why.  A couple years ago I went on a deep soul search within myself with the aid of a very mild opiate herb.  I had no idea then that I was in fact a woman...  But at the end of the search when I finally found myself, my true self...  Wow.  What a revelation it was.  And it changed everything.

I'm now transitioning...  Very early in the process, but when I came to from that long nightmare there was no doubt in my mind that I had no other choice.

I'm a big fan of that question myself.  I actually turn it around on people who seem to think I should do just that.  I already took that magic pill when I was very VERY young.  And it nearly killed me.  So no.  I wouldn't.  At least, never again.  That's one of those things you only ever do once and then you know better.  Though in most conversations with people when they ask it, I say that I'm not sure I would.  Would you?  Implying they take a pill that'd turn them into a complete opposite of what they identify as and effectively kill their identity.  Or even, in cases when dealing with those bigoted genderqueers who seem to believe only cis-male , cis-female, and genderqueer exist, just whatever "sex" they were born with.  Because that's what that question boils down to.  Would you effectively kill yourself in order to make a completely different person just to appease others?
Togekab00m Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2013
I love this page.
Ninjoon Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2013
Well this is kinda what i'm feeling. Good thing i'm doing something about it and trying to make this maybe possible via the study of biotechnology just you wait ill figure it out !
JocelynSamara Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2013  Professional Writer
"i'm doing something about it and trying to make this maybe possible"

Actually, I'm a little confused. When you say you want to make "this" possible, are you referring to Gavin's wonder drug or something else?
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