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RAIN p.88 - Annoying by JocelynSamara RAIN p.88 - Annoying by JocelynSamara
(Posting several hours early today. Partly because I was a few hours late last time. Partly because I'm taking a short break from packing.)

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This page is kind of interesting. At least, to me, itís very personal. Itís not based off any factual situation Iíve ever faced, but rather, a deep fear of mine. That one day, a friend will have just had it and tell me what a nuisance I am for my (sometimes irrational) neuroticism towards passing or how their life couldíve been more normal if I was. Again, Iíve never had it said to me, but I do occasionally worry that at least a few of my friends have thought it.

I changed the dialogue no less than four-hundred times in the past month since I drew this. Itís infinitely better than how it started, but I still have very mixed feelings about it. As always, I welcome any thoughts.

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Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.
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LiaHansen Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Student Artist
God, what an asshat!

...Y'think this is what people are actually thinking to themselves? :tears:
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wulfboii Featured By Owner May 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have the same fear... only it's actually happened to me. The dialogue was pretty different from Gavin's and Rain's, but still it sucked for me because I thought this person was supportive and understanding.

As a side note, when you say "how their life could've been more normal if I was", the problem is that they see our "normal" as our birth gender, as where we see "normal" as being born the gender we truly are. Not hating on cis people in any way, but it's hard when they just don't understand sometimes :/
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Ryu890 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012
This....

I had a different fear. That I acctually WOULD be someone else.....I know it was silly...but I was deadly determined to still be myself...
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UsagiKnight Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
If I can help you out, the dialogue is good the way it is. It sounds like something you would naturally hear and it doesn't feel scripted. You were right to trust your feelings on this. It did turn out beautifully to my heart. I see Rain's point, but at the same time Gavin's make equally as much sense. He misses the Ryan he grew to care for and even protect while Rain misses the Gavin that she cared for and was protected by. But again that fear just lingers that nothing can be mended from what has happened.

I wake up everyday and feel that about my family since they were the only real friends (outside of a couple of local boys) that was really friends with. That I might as well not be the same as I once was. and that in my heart I know I am still me, but can't argue with them. But I guess that is another reason we want to get used to adjusting to our potential new lives. So we can be the person that Gavin remembers from lost days. Someone who was always smiling and cheerful, like the person they have loved from lost days.

I'm thankful for what you did with this page, and love how it reflects the title page in tone and feel perfectly. I'm glad to rank this among the top Rain pages to me.
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14bj337 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2011
Finally, Gavin cuts to the heart of the matter! Even if he is a bit harsh about it, it still had to come out.
Right now, he's still trying to reconcile Rain with Ryan. I get the feeling that he wants to see her as his old friend, or at least he wants to see that his old friend has not been abandoned (as he says, "Ryan may as well be dead.") Even though Gavin probably has some interest in Rain, he wants to be a friend first.
Of course, it's difficult for Rain as well. She wants to be seen as a girl, and is forced to cover up her biological identity. While she has changed, I get the feeling that she doesn't want to kill Ryan entirely. Whether she acknowledges it or not, Ryan is her past. I can't wait to see Rain finally facing, and learning to accept, the old her as well as the new her.
This is a very strong page, especially compared to the previous, lighter ones. One of the great things about this comic is how it can change tone almost instantly, from awkward humor to serious tension.
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yet-another-martin Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2011
"You're indeed a nuisance right now, but you're still my friend." Would that be so bad?

As for being "normal", remember that it's just another word for "boring". So your friends' lives could be more boring if you were. Don't you dare! :)

--- Martin
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sammichan83 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
i sooooooooooo completely get this entire strip. has happened one to many times to me too. i hope it gets better for Rain, or at least Gavin lightens his expectations.............not likely if RL as any bearing.............but i can be an optimist..............................
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samrules4 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
reading this makes me so sad....
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stuartd9 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
lookin forwands to the next one its surprisingly intresting given im straight and male
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Dinadan-Ermorfea Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Poor Rain :(
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