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RAIN p.88 - Annoying by JocelynSamara RAIN p.88 - Annoying by JocelynSamara
(Posting several hours early today. Partly because I was a few hours late last time. Partly because I'm taking a short break from packing.)

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This page is kind of interesting. At least, to me, itís very personal. Itís not based off any factual situation Iíve ever faced, but rather, a deep fear of mine. That one day, a friend will have just had it and tell me what a nuisance I am for my (sometimes irrational) neuroticism towards passing or how their life couldíve been more normal if I was. Again, Iíve never had it said to me, but I do occasionally worry that at least a few of my friends have thought it.

I changed the dialogue no less than four-hundred times in the past month since I drew this. Itís infinitely better than how it started, but I still have very mixed feelings about it. As always, I welcome any thoughts.

Rain, all characters and all other aspects of the story are copyright material belonging to me.
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ShadowDevill Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Are men's and women's razors really different?  
JocelynSamara Featured By Owner Jul 21, 2015  Professional Writer
Women's razors are pink and cost more.  That's pretty much the only difference.  XD

If someone is less likely to nick themselves with one gendered razor over the other (people like myself, or in this case, Rain), it's probably some kind of mental thing.  
saintdane05 Featured By Owner May 24, 2015
Comeon, Mr. Jerkface, you were doing so well!
kabit Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2014
No! The razors are the same!! It's a pink tax on ours and I use the pink handle with the men's blades just FINE.
LiaHansen Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2013  Student Artist
God, what an asshat!

...Y'think this is what people are actually thinking to themselves? :tears:
wulfboii Featured By Owner May 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I have the same fear... only it's actually happened to me. The dialogue was pretty different from Gavin's and Rain's, but still it sucked for me because I thought this person was supportive and understanding.

As a side note, when you say "how their life could've been more normal if I was", the problem is that they see our "normal" as our birth gender, as where we see "normal" as being born the gender we truly are. Not hating on cis people in any way, but it's hard when they just don't understand sometimes :/
Ryu890 Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2012

I had a different fear. That I acctually WOULD be someone else.....I know it was silly...but I was deadly determined to still be myself...
UsagiKnight Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
If I can help you out, the dialogue is good the way it is. It sounds like something you would naturally hear and it doesn't feel scripted. You were right to trust your feelings on this. It did turn out beautifully to my heart. I see Rain's point, but at the same time Gavin's make equally as much sense. He misses the Ryan he grew to care for and even protect while Rain misses the Gavin that she cared for and was protected by. But again that fear just lingers that nothing can be mended from what has happened.

I wake up everyday and feel that about my family since they were the only real friends (outside of a couple of local boys) that was really friends with. That I might as well not be the same as I once was. and that in my heart I know I am still me, but can't argue with them. But I guess that is another reason we want to get used to adjusting to our potential new lives. So we can be the person that Gavin remembers from lost days. Someone who was always smiling and cheerful, like the person they have loved from lost days.

I'm thankful for what you did with this page, and love how it reflects the title page in tone and feel perfectly. I'm glad to rank this among the top Rain pages to me.
14bj337 Featured By Owner Jul 2, 2011
Finally, Gavin cuts to the heart of the matter! Even if he is a bit harsh about it, it still had to come out.
Right now, he's still trying to reconcile Rain with Ryan. I get the feeling that he wants to see her as his old friend, or at least he wants to see that his old friend has not been abandoned (as he says, "Ryan may as well be dead.") Even though Gavin probably has some interest in Rain, he wants to be a friend first.
Of course, it's difficult for Rain as well. She wants to be seen as a girl, and is forced to cover up her biological identity. While she has changed, I get the feeling that she doesn't want to kill Ryan entirely. Whether she acknowledges it or not, Ryan is her past. I can't wait to see Rain finally facing, and learning to accept, the old her as well as the new her.
This is a very strong page, especially compared to the previous, lighter ones. One of the great things about this comic is how it can change tone almost instantly, from awkward humor to serious tension.
yet-another-martin Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2011
"You're indeed a nuisance right now, but you're still my friend." Would that be so bad?

As for being "normal", remember that it's just another word for "boring". So your friends' lives could be more boring if you were. Don't you dare! :)

--- Martin
sammichan83 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
i sooooooooooo completely get this entire strip. has happened one to many times to me too. i hope it gets better for Rain, or at least Gavin lightens his expectations.............not likely if RL as any bearing.............but i can be an optimist..............................
samrules4 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
reading this makes me so sad....
stuartd9 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
lookin forwands to the next one its surprisingly intresting given im straight and male
Dinadan-Ermorfea Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
Poor Rain :(
2dumb2die88 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
dawww reading this made me sad D:

and cant you make like a pic where rain wears the nighty that gavins mom wanted to wear :P?
iam wondering how rain would look in it :)
Musicallover1234 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011  Student Writer
I hate it when i nick myself when i shave, i am not doing it as much, practice makes perfect i guess. As for Rain while Rain is still in there Rain's just worried about passing and is insecure about it. And hopefully Gavin will understand that and if he is a true friend he will help her with those feelings. And I love Rain will long hair, i think that it looks better long, but the way she normal has it looks good too.
lenga-chan Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
Oh, man, I know exactly how Gavin feels in this page. One of my friends is transitioning into the transitioning process, and I have this terrible feeling that my old friend -- is going to be gone, that the girl I knew and loved is going to be replaced by this stoic man I'll never be on a level with. I know it's irrational and terrible, but that emotion is still there. I've always felt really intense sympathy for Gavin throughout this comic, because even though some of his actions have been callous and in some ways incorrect, being the ally is /hard/, dealing with the feelings of deceit, loss... yeah, I could go on, but the short version is that it's complicated.

On a perkier note, I really like how you drew Rain in the last three panels! Her hair there really speaks to me.
Master303 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
Love the story. :3
Animasword Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist's an interesting situation and I can see where both sides are coming from here. My optimistic side is hoping they can sort out their differences soon...but something tells me it's not that simple.
Mage421 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
<sigh> And here I thought you had stopped being an insensitive jerk Gavin...
Saphiragal Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
I heavily fear this might happen to me one day in the future as well....
Suki-chan36 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
I can see where both of them are coming from. Rain is trying SO hard to live the life she wants to live, and Gavin is trying equally as hard to believe that nothing has changed. So, whenever a change does rear its head, it's like a slap in the face to him. This is a very realistic, very well done page, Lily. No need to have mixed feelings - it's awesome. ^_^
VIII-Bit Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
I had the same expression on my face as Rain did in the 6th panel... Something's still eating at Gavin. He's still not alright with this situation.
Athils Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
He might get better with time. Only a few days have passed since he found out about her.

My parents still haven't spoken to me since last year, and some people's friends and families never get used to it. It sucks, but it's the exception and not the rule with most people.
VIII-Bit Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Thank you for putting that into perspective for me.
Athils Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
Just my perspective, really. I'm sure the truth is out there somewhere, but I don't think anybody knows what it looks like.
zenacra Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Hobbyist Photographer
i fear the same thing happening to me after i begin my transition. DX i'm especially afraid it'll be my boyfriend who gets onto me for being neurotic, cause he's so hard to annoy. >_<
Iheartart1 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
I'm VERY happy I haven't gotten the "I liked you better when you were (guy name here)"
Werewolf-Hero Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
:glomp: I'm sorry Rain
PrincessPetticoat Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
After much reading --and looking at the pretty pictures-- I have come to this conclusion about Gavin. He seems to have gone through a lot of pain in this great reunion because his close friend is "dead" and now he has of a former friend in front of him. I feel his therefore Gavin is now "Sorrow Beard the pirate"!!
Yin88 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
Awwh, this one is kind of sad :<

Come on Gavin! Don't go back on your chance to make up for earlier! >_<
ZanaGB Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011   Digital Artist
There is no more blind than the one who does not want to see, and it seems he even has fun making her suffering with her old self... oh well, it was kinda sad
chihuahua0 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Student Writer
Wow. Except for the length of Gavin's neck in panel three, the art on this page is great compare to the others.
Nelekra Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Man people can seem like dicks sometimes :P.. Idk I guess he just doens't realize it, but he makes me mad :P lol.
dragon8writer Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Gavin needs to adjust a little - but I don't think it's fair pinning the blame on him, this time, not entirely anyhow. (Not that you have, but I can see others doing it already.)

I mean, it's not just the fact that Rain seems to be nitpicking - it's the fact that, as Gavin has pointed out, she's acting so _different_ from the person he befriended. I think Gavin is just trying to find his friend in the middle of all this mess (Which he hardly seems to understand anyhow). Though Rain has a reason behind everything she's said and done, she hasn't made that easy....
KirukaChan Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I bet Gavin's response to Rain's final bit of dialogue will be, "Well excuuuuuuuuuuuuuse me, Princess!"
COMPUTERMANMIK428 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
aww that's sad.
adragonknight Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
just wondering, whats the differences betwen the razors?. since rain cut herself on the "guy razors" which implies she would not have cut herself on the "girl razors".

and wow gavin have razors that work? i guess he is just to lazy to shave :P

hope things get better for rain and that gavin can get over it
16bithero1995 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Reminds me of how I'm very different in girl mode
PrincessJessica Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
so sad....hope things get better soon
Chicken-Yuki Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011   Traditional Artist
...and yet he couldn't take a hint that all that smiling may not have been sincere? ^^;
slightly-shotgunned Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011
This is probably the most interesting response I've read. It made me think two things:

If all the smiles and cheerfulness were insincere, then maybe that's part of what Gavin is struggling with. He stood up for Ryan, bled for him, shared with him, laughed, had all these amazing times with someone he believed was his friend and if /that's/ how Gavin sees Rain, then the realization that none of their childhood meant anything real to Ryan would be a bitter pill to swallow. ...Or, maybe that's just Gavin's way of asking for a little gratitude. He's opened his home, pledged to be the same friend he was when they were too young to understand such things. Rain has nitpicked at every effort he's made. It's gotta be frustrating for him.
slightly-shotgunned Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
I think a lot of people who read this are so quick to villify Gavin that they may have thought it and overlooked it because it makes him a bit more of sympathetic, even tragic, friend and not a rigid, insensitive asshole.
Chicken-Yuki Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2011   Traditional Artist

I tend to be surprised when the one or two comments I make that FEEL like common sense to me end up holding a surprising amount of weight validity to it.

I don't mean to be condescending or anything, but I once suggested something that I thought sounded like common sense, too, but apparently no one else realized it was even remotely an option until I actually voiced it aloud. ^^;

That's some great insight, though. The first is pretty much how I felt about this. :nod:
slightly-shotgunned Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2011
I think a lot of people who read this are so quick to villify Gavin that they may have thought it and overlooked it because it makes him a bit more of sympathetic, even tragic, friend and not a rigid, insensitive asshole.

...i fail reply buttons.
willow1981 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Me too :hug: I hope Rain isn't too hurt over this :)
emeraldthechao174 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Aww poor Rain, she needs a hug and a cupcake.

:iconsweethugplz: :iconcupcakeplz:
Undertaker972 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
o wow, that was kinda sad. i hope Gavin can try to understand her feelings better
naruto3322 Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2011
Same here man...same here.
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