So, um… one year. Wow. Happy Tranniversary to me!
It’s weird to think of myself having been at this for all this time already. I feel like for so long I was almost used to being the one trailing behind, not accomplishing anything. The current route is much better, I must say, but it’s still oddly foreign to me. It doesn’t feel like a year has passed already.
And yet, in the same breath, I can’t help but think: “Really? JUST one year? I haven’t been at this for two or three or eight or all of my years?” Because yes, I’ve been on hormones for a year, and full time for seven months, and legally named “Jocelyn” for a just over a month… but I had a lot of other things going for LONG before that. I’ve been dressing female – at least occasionally – for years. I’ve been seeking the opportunity to transition for almost a decade. And I’ve been wanting everything I’m finally getting since as early as I’ve had conscious thoughts! So, how can I possibly ONLY be one year into this?
It’s all so surreal. But it’s all good. I’ve never been happier than how I’ve felt for this past year. I’ve never loved myself more. Mentally and emotionally, I feel amazing. Physically too. I’ve lost 15lbs since starting transition a year ago. My assets have filled out nicely and I still occasionally cry for joy when I see myself in the mirror. I’ve still got a ways to go to be where I want to be, but I’m delighted to see such progress. ^_^
I wish I knew what else to say. This is normally the part where I keep talking for another five paragraphs, but words escape me at the moment. So I guess I’ll just leave it that.
As always, comments are welcome but if you’re thinking anything mean-spirited or disparaging (or creepy), please keep it to yourself.
Thank you all for your support and encouragement, everyone. I'd doubt I'd have gotten this far without you. I love you all, and I wish you a wonderful day. ^_^